It has been a long time, perhaps too long, since I forced myself to capture my thoughts, rants, dreams, ideas, or otherwise down on real paper, or electronic style. I am hoping this may be good for me, as I feel I am at a cross roads, or maybe even a dead end these days.
I desperately need something to come along & wake me from this comatose state that I have undoubtedly pushed myself into.. But I did not go there unguided & empty handed. No. I have had plenty of hand me outs of bad luck from the universe, coupled with my unsurpassed ability to make some of the dumbest decisions.... Nothing like setbacks & hatred to motivate you... And nothing like weed & depression to knock that motivated wind out of your sails.
I am almost 26 years old & I feel totally lost at sea. Now is the time for me to get my shit together in a serious way & make something out of this shit show hand of cards I have been dealt. & enough of trying to cheat the dealer. I guess that's just not how it works. Sometimes you gotta just bite the big old shit sandwich.
